When you fall in love with the idea of living with the one you love, is it completely self destructive to think about how much effort and cosmic alignments will have to occur to make it happen?
When your boyfriend finds a great, affordable, safe apartment for 2, but it happens to be in Los Angeles, and you don't have a job there yet, I think that its called being realistic. My J (MBTI what!) hurts just thinking about picking up and moving out there because it seems to be right in my heart.
I have to get my head to pick up the pace and feel the sense of hope and adventure that is brewing in my gut and in my chest.
I am more heartsick than ever, even with love and life progressing towards my ultimate goals. Uncertainty breeds doubt and anxiety, so I'm going to just go with not thinking about everything and letting things happen, for once.
I predict I'll last about 20 minutes.
As much as it can make things harder in the right now... this IS a good thing.
ReplyDeleteHe sees you in his apartment. He sees you in his life.
I'm happy for yer face!